Rainbows of Happiness

It is What it is

I’m bringing this back from the dead.

As I look around my room, I see a disaster zone. Ground zero. Like a tornado flew in here and destroyed everything. Except, it was never whole to begin with. I was so rushed to move in that I didn’t really have time to organize, especially since getting thrown back into school. Or, perhaps, I’m just an unorganized person.

I’ve found myself deeply embarrassed by the condition of it. I can’t stand for people to see it this way. My stuff is also seeping into the living area and kitchen and I’m afraid I’m a burden to my roommates.

But I have to learn to let it go. I have to learn to accept that this is just what is. It’s nothing to be embarrassed or worried about. Still, I can’t help worrying about this kind of thing. I find that I worry about it far more than I actually do anything to remedy the situation. I get to the point where I worry so much about it that when it comes time to do something about it, I’m far too mentally worn out. My worrying becomes part of the chore itself and I’m left feeling ridiculously overwhelmed.

Thoughts are something that we can’t control. So we need to learn to recognize thoughts and let them go. But it’s figuring out how to do this that’s the problem. I cannot just…let things be. 

Maybe I’ll figure it out one day.

“One Day, When I’m Rich…”

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about money. About financing, saving, where I need to spend my money. I use to be so good, like when I got my first job. I used the “envelope method” with microsoft money and anytime I got a paycheck or cash, I’d record it. I was diligent about it. Now you give me a wad of cash, and it disappears. 

I’ve caught myself looking at a lot of stuff and wishing I could have it. Wishing I could afford it. “One day, when I’m rich…” I’ll think. “I’ll be able to buy this.” 

One day…one day…one day…

I realized today that this sort of thinking will get me no where. First off, there’s no guarantee that will happen. Secondly, who’s to say I can’t afford it now? 

I won’t go into a long, drawn-out blog post about my financial plan, but I will say I’ve got to get more control on my money situation, and I’m taking steps to make sure that it happens. And I think this is a problem for a lot of people. Wishful thinking is nice, but it gets you nowhere. If you’re in the same boat I am, don’t wait for the future. Take action today. 

And that’s…my two cents. :P

Today’s To-Do List

• Write blog for intro to drama
• Get a book for political science
• Check mail for book for Intro to Journalism
• Finish coming up with a weekly schedule
• Add things to to-do list (home, school, other)
• Read emails
• Work on Nerdy Show internship project
• Take medicine
• Go to work study
• Eat at some point
• Take a shower at some point
• Go to sleep at some point

A Jar of Golfballs

I stole this from Facebook:

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had
some items in front of him. When the class began,
wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty
mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf
balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full?
They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles
and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar
lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas
between the golf balls. He then asked the students
again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured
it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up
everything else. He asked once more if the jar was
full. The students responded with an unanimous “yes.”

The professor then produced two cans of beer
from under the table and poured the entire contents
into the jar, effectively filling the empty space
between the sand. The students laughed.

“Now,” said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
“I want you to recognize that this jar
represents your life. The golf balls are the
important things—your family, your health, your
children, your friends, your favorite
passions—things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained, your life would still be
full. “The pebbles are the other things that matter
like your job, your house, your car. The sand is
everything else—the small stuff.

If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued,
“there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life. If you spend all
your time and energy on the small stuff, you will
never have room for the things that are important to
you. Pay attention to the things that are critical
to your happiness. Play with your children. Take
time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out
to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be
time to clean the house, and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first, the things that
really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just
sand.”

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what
the beer represented.

The professor smiled. “I’m glad you asked. It just
goes to show you that no matter how full your life may
seem, there’s always room for a couple of beers.”

By This Time Next Year…

By this time next year…

• I will have completed two successful semesters at UT with all A’s and very few B’s. 
• I will have had at least one session of dance classes.
• I will have learned to remix my own music as well as learn to live DJ.
• I will still be a radio dj for 90.3 the rock and possibly hosting a specialty show.
• I will have at least looked into internships from possibly interning at Star 102.1 all the way to Pixar. The possibilities are endless!
• I will have traveled to several states, including Georgia, New York, North Carolina, and (I hope) California.
• I will be significantly more fluent in Japanese.
• I will have renounced my messy ways and find a way to stay organized in all aspects of my life!
• I will NOT have let a boy get in the way of my success nor happiness and learn to love myself indefinitely. 
• …however, I do hope to have at least one successful relationship ^_~

I hope everyone has goals for their new year as well and high hopes for themselves. I’m going to work hard on myself and making myself happy and I believe 2012 is the perfect year for that…by this time next year, I will be a better person…

…if we’re not all dead from the end of the world that is. :P

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!~~~~~~~~~